When it all falls apart

when was the last time you felt so relieved, so light, ever so happy? (:

I love my mummy (:
I told her everything, now we're sorta not hiding anything from each other anymore. I thought she was gonna slap me, or whatever. But no, I cried so badly in front of her. Man, haha. And she comforted me & all, told me that everything would be fine. [: I'm so glad that I've told her my darknest(not really) secret. And she has accepted the way her daughter is. I should have told her earlier on so I don't have to lie so much to her. Some things that she said are really true. And some things that she've said is actually repeated. Ohwell, I'm still glad I told her. Sassy, Bestaye & Qiaos find it so surprising of me to tell my mom, to open up to her & tell her the truth, being ohsohonest. Haha, but I'm damn happy! Sassy find it weird to open up to my mom, what's more with my mom's temper. (: Qiaos & Bestaye finds it amazing but glad. :)

Oh yay! And the next day mom texted me & made me wanna cry. Mushy yet touching (: She sent me during Chinese btw, or rather I read it during Chinese lesson.
"G, u dont think too much. Everything will be settled. Time is the best medicine. Remember dad n mom love u. Grizel love u too."

Tell me how not to be moved & wanna cry :)

Oh tuesday! Uh where did I go.. Oh I stayed in school for Art with Bestaye & Shyan [: Did nothing actually. Used the com for awhile && slacked around, cut out a few pictures & sketches. Left @ around 5plus. Asked dad to pick me up but he couldn't so I took a cab back. Fucking cab fare, fucking expensive but whatever. It's over.

Wednesday. Nothing much either. Um, Piano, came back, fucking no mood so I skipped class. Godma was in the house, I couldn't leave either. Dad didn't want me to go as well. So yeap. Watch SG Idol. Bestaye with her friends was in it! It was some interview thingy. Haha. Very short though. Hm. Had dinner & all. Bummed around. That's the day I told mummy (:

Thursday. Ay, shitz. I can't remember. Oh! I had my N lvls English oralllll (: Uber tough but I tried my bestest. [: I hate picture discussion or whatever you call that. I hope I can pass though. Left school @ 4plus. Went home, showered, got changed & went to meet Qiaos & Mich. Mich left after that. Qiaos & I took train down to Newton. Ha, saw Pert & Angie on the way @ Dhoby Ghaut (: This time we're fated uh? Shy my backside la okay. Hm, went to Newton hawker centre & eat. Saw Godma & her family there! Maxi is so fucking cute, Vanessa is so so so innocent (: Fucking stingray fucking spicy! Haha but we enjoyed though. Heh. Jasmine came, Grace came then Feldy. Class was stupid, but hilarious. "I like to act retarded & I love my best friend. -hugs Qiaos" How stupid can I get? Haha. That one made the whole class laughed like fuck. Man. Kasand was even funnier! "Hi I'm Kasand this year" -.- Which means you're Kendra last year & next year? You're Kelly? [: Girll you're so funny! Rofl, ohwells, I can't remember what the rest said that made me & Qiaos rolled on the floor. The instructor is damn gay but funny! Haha. He said Qiaos & I can go help Mediacorp record our laughters so that in comedies or whatever, whenever they need recorded laughters, ours would help. Haha!

Acting is not my cup of tea, I guess. The rest went to eat, while I fucking went home on my own. I don't feel like mentioning about it here 'cos I'm kinda not allowed to but I'm fucking pissed, yeh still. Fucking fucked up situation. Nevermind. So.. I tapped my fucking card but decided that I do not want to end up crying in the train, I walked out. Haha. I'm so scared, I swear. Called Pert & she accompanied me all the way home. Haha, thanks for torlerating my screams, my cries & whinings (: Heh. Ok seriously, just imagine myself, ever so helplessly, screaming like some fucking loser in the middle of nowhere, crying. -.- All those profanities were used la kay. Damn crude. Pert took them all, & I'm so thankfullllll. Took white cab home, mercedes(spell?). YAY!

Went back, showered. Read my book on the bed & I almost fell asleep! Haha. Was waiting for Pert to call. Haha. (: Talked for awhile & slept. (:

I'm counting down to the hours till I see you again.
Your smile, I'm falling for.
Your eyes that speaks directly to my heart.

Hehehe, I can't wait for Monday (:

Tmr! Sass, Yj, Qiaos, Tricia, Sj & myself & maybe Xiiuwen's going bowling at Safra Yishun (: Bowl & K! :D Uber happy.


Your big smile I saw that day, I couldn't forget.
<3.